Kekecewaan, mungkin dalam beberapa minggu terakhir ini dapat dikatakan gue sering ngerasaain itu. Ga cuma dari satu orang sih... (walaupun emg doi yang paling sering bikin saya merasa begitu), yang lain juga. Tapi, what can I do gitu lho? Ya... mau ga mau mesti sabar – emang kuncinya cuman 'mesti sabar' –  daripada ngikutin emosi dan nuntut sesuatu tapi malah bikin runyam nantinya. ^^

Well........ gue selalu ingat dengan satu quote :
"Bisa karena terbiasa."

Mungkin karena terbiasa merasakan kekecewaan kita bisa jadi seseorang yang tegar. Bersabar itu perbuatan yang baik kok. Walaupun bikin agak sakit hati sih (hahahaha), tapi percayalah, good things come to those who patiently wait. Mungkin dengan seringnya kita merasakan kekecewaan, lama kelamaan kita jadi tahu bagaimana cara untuk menikmati kekecewaan tersebut. Aneh sih emang, mana bisa kekecewaan dinikmati, hahaha tapi anggap saja bisa lah ya.
“semakin kecil pengharapan kita akan sesuatu, semakin kecil juga rasa kekecewaan yang akan kita dapatkan.”

Gue selalu berusaha buat inget kalimat itu, gak cuma inget sih, tapi nerapin juga. Awalnya emang susah, karena kalo kita berharap sesuatu, pasti bakal merambat ke harapan yang lainnya. Tapi yaa.... lama lama juga pasti (Insya Allah) bisa, karena terbiasa. ;)

less expectation, less disappointment

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"tersenyumlah, mau seburuk apapun harimu, seberapa besar kekecewaan atau kesedihanmu, tersenyumlah." ☺


-Oktavia Z.

quote of the day

Dia. 
Satu-satunya orang yang bisa bikin saya kesal dan tertawa diwaktu berikutnya pada hari yang sama.

Dia. 
Satu-satunya orang yg bisa bikin saya gregetan & tersenyum diwaktu berikutnya pada hari yang sama.

Dia. 
Satu-satunya orang yang bisa bikin saya menangis dan optimis diwaktu berikutnya pada hari yang sama.

Dia.
Penyebab rasa kekecewaan dan kebahagiaan saya pada hari yang sama.


He's so adorable... in many ways, although sometimes he made me upset. 
He's like the motivator. 
He has his own style to show his sweet-side, and he shows me in such a funny way. :P

..................... and I'm in love with this guy.

Him.

Pelangi. 

Kenapa pelangi? Karena gue suka pelangi. Karena pelangi itu warna-warni. Karena dengan ngeliat pelangi, somehow bisa bikin mood orang jadi baik. 

Dan karena... orang itu bilang "biasanya, dibalik badai pasti muncul pelangi".

And I believe, he can be the rainbow, for me.

Pelangi

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Kalau kalian ada diantara pilihan menyakiti atau tersakiti, kalian milih mana?

tersakiti? kalau itu hal yang bikin kalian bahagia, the only thing yang bisa bikin kalian senyum immediately disaat kalian lagi gak mood, emang kalian rela mau ngelepasinnya gitu aja? kalau hal itu adalah hal yang kalian harapkan, tapi pas hal itu udah hampir di depan mata, kalian rela berkorban?

menyakiti? kalau hal yang justru bikin lo bahagia itu adalah hal yang menyakiti hati orang lain, apa kalian mau untuk tetap dengan egois menjalankannya? kalian sanggup ngebayangin gimana kalau kalian diposisi mereka, ga?

saat dihadapin sama pilihan yang kayak begini, siapa sih yang gak pengen kabur dan berharap menghilang aja? kita pasti gamau menyakiti, tapi kita juga sebisa mungkin untuk ga tersakiti. cuman.. kalo pilihannya cuma antara dua itu, gimana?

what's better?


I don't even know what's wrong with myself..... ughh. Tapi pas lagi shuffle lagu di handphone, kebetulan ke-play lagu ini dan.. suddenly I just wanna post this lyric. Mungkin lagi pas sama suasana hati, mungkin karena emang liriknya yang bagus, dan mungkin karena kemungkinan yang lainnya. I dont know. Well, there's time when you dont even understand yourself, isn't it?


Simple Plan - Welcome To My Life


Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud 
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you 
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you 
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you 
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you 
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

Welcome To My Life